rundown

by Aerica Lauren

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released May 17, 2014

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Aerica Lauren Richmond, Virginia

Why you should hear my music: it's totally heartfelt, gut-wrenching, honest, different, yet catchy. You're going to relate to this stuff, I promise. Acoustic, lots of harmonies and layers, and it's all me.

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Track Name: separate lips
"dark water holds the harbor
blinking shapes cradle the coastline
I feel like I’m belly-up among the stars
waiting for a sign

I thought the foggy spots were flood
an older city newly drowned
I felt relieved it was the end
then I realized they were only clouds

we were here once
but we didn’t kiss
I didn’t know how to hold our bodies separate from our lips
maybe I never will
but if you asked me I would try
I just don’t think that I can tonight

I must be right above the ocean
I’ve never seen such gray expanse
I must be where I’ve never been
I’m not sure I’ve ever really danced

If on the surface I seem happy
it’s only ‘cause you’re coming back to me
the rest is something to be saved
sails beating for a beacon over every other wave

we were here once
but we didn’t kiss
I didn’t know how to hold our bodies separate from our lips
maybe I never will
but if you asked me I would try
I just don’t think that I can tonight

Unlock the door and put me out upon the wing
The stars tonight are unlike ones I’ve ever seen

Even Wyoming - the closest to you I’ve ever been -
cannot compare as I descend instead into Boston

Have you tried explaining dreams or fantasized
the majesty of seeing things from such great heights

remember tears from ripping you from me that night
arriving late and leaving early – way too early – for a flight

we were not here
and we’ll never kiss again
though you’re familiar with how to hold me like a friend
Fly over harbors
swim under every bay bound bridge
I can’t pretend that I will ever ever be okay with this"

© Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014
Track Name: breathing underwater
"It was sunny in the desert
we bathed our bodies in chlorine
you were wading in the shallows
kissing someone else’s sheen

I was not listening
though I knew it was happening
I was lower than an angler
I was breathing underwater to stay down

Tell me you still love me
tell me anything
I can’t hang out here forever
I can’t miss you any better than I do now

It’s too sunny in the desert
I bathed our past in gasoline
Why should I stick around to hear
you want nothing to do with me

I hate not knowing
if we will be happening
so I’ll be lower than an angler
I’ll be breathing underwater to stay down

Tell me you still love me
tell me anything
I can’t hang out here forever
I can’t miss you any better than I do now

I don’t wanna know what you can’t do.
Everything I said, it was all true.
I guess it’s best that you had to leave
my fickle love and my heart on my sleeve.

Don’t say you don’t love me
Don’t say anything
You can’t wait around forever
You won’t love me any better than I do now"

©Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014
Track Name: green
"A twister formed from Hell and storm one dry and dusty day,
touched down right upon my family and carried them away.
I know it ain’t my fault but God I still feel so ashamed.
No house or hand to hold the soul borne to my parents’ names.

“Let go”
I know, I know.

I built a garden green and growing everything I’d need.
The winter fell and starved me well down to the deepest seed.
I know it ain’t my fault but I still feel this kind of grief
for what is mine – from dirt to dimes, the flowers to the weeds.

“Let go”
I know, I know.

One last time I tried to find something to believe:
a way to pray, a face whose love could bring me to my knees.
I know it ain’t my fault these fires burned down all the trees,
but still it’s home and though I’m alone I can’t bring myself to leave.

“Let go”
I know, I know."

©Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014
Track Name: homesick
"Birds fly and I watch from the ground.
I’m always on the ground.
But I feel the same wind,
and I see the same sky,
so why can’t I?
Why can’t I?

Is it from the way that I say - when everything is wrong -
that everything is okay?
Is it ‘cause I kissed too freely the ones who didn’t want me
once they really knew me?
Is it from the times that I tried but I didn’t get to tell you
that I really loved you?
Is it ‘cause I quit going on when momentum is gone
even though I’m still growing?

It’s… too… It’s too cold here
I’m… so… I’m so cold and I don’t wanna be here at all.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, this can’t mean everything is ending…
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, I told you everything is okay.

Tell me what the twelve steps are
for missing my home; how do I stop missing home so bad?
Take me down the eightfold path
to getting on a train and never looking back….
I will sleep in the arms of my mother
I will sleep in under the sun with my father

It’s… too… It’s too cold here
I’m… so… I’m so cold and I don’t wanna be here at all.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, this can’t mean everything is ending…
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, I told you everything is okay.

It’s… too… It’s too cold here
I’m… so… I’m so cold and I don’t wanna be here at all.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, this can’t mean everything is ending…
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, I told you everything is okay.
Everything is winding down…"

©Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014
Track Name: i'm lower
"So… hours have gone,
years form from days
and ours hasn’t come.

Still, you’ve got to go;
your heart’s on the line
and mine is in tow.

(Tide’s getting) lower now, lover.
I dried up a well for my fears,
filled it back up with my tears,
told all the ghosts that could hear,
“I’m lower now, lover.”

Slow, I am this wreck.
I am this sad, sad scene
that you couldn’t stomach.

So drive and never look back.
I’m trying to find a reason why
you’d want to see me this bad.

(‘Cause I’m) lower now, lover.
I dried up a well for my fears,
filled it back up with my tears,
told all the ghosts that could hear,
“I’m lower now, lover.”

I dried up a well for my fears,
filled it back up with my tears,
told all the ghosts that could hear,
“I’m lower now, lover.”

© Aerica Lauren Music 2014
Track Name: tilikum
"
Here to my surprise,
you’ve got tigers trapped inside your eyes.
Has no one told you so?
Or are you scared to let the wild parts go?

Something shakes your bones;
you’ve got snakes that rattle in your throat.
Does no one take your side?
Or are you scared to show them where you hide?

I would come to you,
fight the fog into a fearless blue sky.
I’m calling off the search –
you’re not lost, you’re just afraid to hurt.
afraid to hurt…

I’m not afraid to hurt
I’m not afraid to hurt
I’m not afraid to hurt
I’m not afraid to hurt"

© Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014
Track Name: snowskin
"Take off your gloves, touch the trees,
loosening their snowskin; I’m a wolf in sheepskin.
Call me up to talk then make our love and break bread,
take me for a walk and ask me to get high then
leave me in the sky when I climb up the branches


Walk downtown, hold your hand;
loving you is an uphill, sweating through the windchill,
shameful sort of struggle I’ve been hanging on forever,
and I don’t know when to let go, and I don’t know when to let go,
and I don’t know when to let go, I don’t know.

Up til now I saw you only how I wanted;
since I found out the truth I am feeling haunted,
like I’ve been lied to… like I’ve been lied to.
Like I’ve been lied to… like I’ve been lied to.
Like I’ve been lied to… like I’ve been lied to.
Like I’ve been lied to… like I’ve been lied to."

© Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014
Track Name: rundown
"Sigh onto your cigarette
I’m spinning all my sins into your smoke
so high – your lips shape your whiskey breath
I was sober enough to know
Kiss this body I haven’t earned
I walk around this place like I own myself
Kill – oh yeah, I know I dressed to kill
Mounting all my prey up on the shelf

Run, run, run
I am running more than most
running down, down, down
with the intentions of…
run, run, run
I am running to the coast, down
down, down, down, with the
intentions of a ghost

Starved for old familiar tricks
I have never once forgotten how to play
I’ve carved out parts of me that never can be fixed
separated from the shell that lets you stay (here)
Full on pretense and what it takes
to go on now knowing what I know
Still I take what I can get
And I take, take, take, til I can’t take no more…

Run, run, run
I am running more than most
running down, down, down
with the intentions of…
run, run, run
I am running to the coast, down
down, down, down, with the
intentions of a ghost."

© Aerica Lauren Publishing 2014