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Through introspection and extroversion I am learning to reclaim the concept of “home,” since for a while I considered myself without one. Working on this project is a meditation, the ultimate enlightenment from which is to feel at home within myself upon this lovely, lonely planet.

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released July 23, 2012

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Aerica Lauren Richmond, Virginia

Why you should hear my music: it's totally heartfelt, gut-wrenching, honest, different, yet catchy. You're going to relate to this stuff, I promise. Acoustic, lots of harmonies and layers, and it's all me.

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Track Name: The Things I Threw Away
I wish I’d kept better track of you, dear,
because it seems so silly now to press ‘restart.’
We could try to make some resolution for the new year,
but what good would it do when we don’t care
like we used to.

I wish I’d danced a little more with you, dear,
when I hear a song that we once loved.
I feel the air I used to feel with you here,
blowing through the spaces we once filled.
But we’re never coming back again to…

Home is where you are.

I’m moving out of the house where I spent my life,
where the trees trickled beams of a spotted light
of the sun or the moon in through my window.
I laid here, I stayed here, and I played in the dirt.
I grew up, I knew that it’d eventually hurt,
but not this much… I didn’t think I’d feel so alone
being torn from everything I’ve known, but…

Home is where you are.

Don’t make me come inside yet,
can’t I just spend the night?
Don’t tell me not to do this,
when all I want is to get closer to the place I feel at…
Home is where you are
in my heart.
Track Name: What I Did Wrong
I’d wake up a white-tail fawn, and I’d go to sleep a bear,
and still you wouldn’t tell me you care.
So I went to sleep a lion, and though I woke up a lamb,
you still won’t call me your man.

And you know I tried to push and find just one thing to hold on,
I just don’t know what I’m doing wrong.

When I’d shake up the Blue Ridge cold and dive down through every drain,
you still wouldn’t tell me your name.
So I bent my tongue and lied and though I spoke your favourite words,
you still won’t let me call you my girl.

And you know I tried to push and find just one thing to hold on,
I just don’t know what I’m doing wrong.

Well someone somewhere said sometimes it won’t be what you want,
so open up the cage around your heart.
And though I snored and roared in doleful tones all the love I had in song,
you still left me, connected my heart to machines as I cried,
“Please, tell me what I’m doing wrong.”

Oh, I cried, “Tell me what I ever, ever, ever did wrong.”
Yes, I cried, but you still wouldn’t tell me what I did wrong.
I still don’t know what I ever, ever, ever, did wrong.
I still don’t know what I ever did wrong.
Track Name: The Cut
Winter’s coming, green and reddened in the face.
Father figure, this time won’t you stay?
Throw me your roots, love, suck up this anger.
White hairs and rainfall curl ‘round your cancer and I…
I… I… I…

The playground’s sinking, the swingset’s shrinking in the dirt.
Band-Aid striptease, the cut’s too deep to even hurt.
Throw me your roots, dear, drip down your answers.
Dew eyes and snowfall wrap ‘round my cancer and I…
I… I… I…

I won’t be coming home for Christmas this year.
Track Name: Lost
I am wasting all my quarters
paying tolls and placing orders before I go back to sleep.
The liquor stores are all closed up
and frankly, things – they could be worse,
but right now I’m just trying not to feel.

I am wasting in this motel,
wondering what the hell I did to make you leave.
Cuz you’re smiling in all your pictures now
and I just don’t understand how
it’s fair that you can laugh when I can’t breathe.

Winter came and we were doing fine.
As spring drew near, you were selfish all the time.

I don’t want to blame – I’m not going to blame you, but I am lost.
Drive, I’m driving away – I’m pushing away what I have lost today.

I am holding all my questions,
getting cozy with the pressure of all my uncertainty.
So follow me but not too close
if I’m the one you want the most
but love me from afar so I am free.

Summer came and I thought I was fine.
Now fall is here and I am selfish all the time.

I don’t want to blame – I’m not going to blame you, but I am lost.
Drive, I’m driving away – I’m pushing away what I have lost today.

I won’t waste the rest of autumn
feeling foiled, feeling fallen,
in the face of all my fears.

I don’t want to blame – I’m not going to blame you, but I am lost.
Drive, I’m driving away – I’m pushing away what I have lost today.
Track Name: Beside You
Say no more about tomorrow,
I don’t wanna cry right now, no, I don’t wanna cry.
So swim with me another hour,
and sleep under the sun ‘til we’re dry, cuz I don’t wanna cry.

And I, oh, I feel new with you.

Your bones are sh-shaking without me
covering your cold with my body,
but know that I’m with you, my baby,
and turn the hot water on.

You are such a sweet companion,
I just wanna drive with you, yeah, I just wanna drive.
So won’t you come and be my passenger?
I can feel your eyes on me; I can feel you when I…

Drive, oh, I feel new with you.

Your bones are sh-shaking without me
covering your cold with my body,
but know that I’m with you, my baby,
and turn the hot water on.

On my life, I swear that I will always be there
for you because I have a need to always be
always beside you.

Your bones are sh-shaking without me
covering your cold with my body,
but know that I’m with you, my baby,
and turn the hot water on.

Your bones are sh-shaking without me
covering your cold with my body,
but know whenever I miss you, my baby,
I just turn the hot water on.

Your bones are sh-shaking without me
covering your cold with my body,
but know whenever you miss me, my baby,
you can just turn the hot water on.

Your bones are sh-shaking without me
covering your cold with my body,
but know that I’m with you, my baby,
and turn the hot water on.
Track Name: I Would Kiss You
what seems like ten thousand years ago,
i was getting old, i was only getting older.
now i feel like i am ten thousand years old
and i ain't gettin young, no i ain't gettin any younger.

love once was a mouse and i was just a cat -
instinctual acts - but still an act is only acting.
now love sleeps, safe and sound and getting fat
but i will not attack, no i ain't never going back.

‘cause i know we're grown and we're all moving on but
if you're alone, then can we be alone?
i thought this simple song might convince you
that no matter how far we are, i would kiss you.

i don't have anything i'm tryna hide,
i just like your eyes, i like your smile, i like your body.
so don't resent the things that i don't feel inside,
i ain't gonna change if i ain't ready, i am sorry.

‘cause i know we're grown and we're all moving on but
if you're alone, then can we be alone?
i thought this simple song might convince you
that no matter how far we are, i would kiss you.

come in close, hold my hips, let your lips brush my lips…

‘cause i know we're grown and we're all moving on but
if you're alone, then can we be alone?
i thought this simple song might convince you
that no matter how far we are, i would kiss you.

‘cause i know we're grown and we're all moving on but
if you're alone, then can we be alone? ‘cause
i hope this simple song will convince you
that no matter how far we are, i will kiss you.
Track Name: The Way
When I was a young girl,
I chiseled gems out from under the world.
I started in my driveway –
hid the piles of diamonds away.

Didn’t fight no thieves those days,
nah, I didn’t fight no thieves those days.

I once had a monkey’s tail,
but I traded it in for a sail.
We thrashed through the sand and sea –
my big canvas cape and me.

But I’m headed back to the trees these days,
yeah, I’m steering straight for the trees these days.

(whistle)

Maybe I got lost along the way
searching for something great to say.
Sure, I picked up a couple gems from the blue,
but I was only just looking for you.

Finally, I found you,
the way that I need you,
the way that I needed to.
Track Name: Home feat. LuLing Osofsky (live)
The sky is looking down on me
like I will always be disappointing.
But stars are hard to hold and harder to be,
and I am lucky just to be here.

Cuz someone’s lookin’ out for me.
Someone’s here when I’m alone.
It ain’t God and it ain’t Mary,
it’s someone come to take me home (so take me home).

The trees will laugh at me sometimes,
tell me I will never be as tall.
But roots are hard to grow and harder to find,
and I am lucky just to have some at all.

Cuz someone’s lookin’ out for me.
Someone’s here when I’m alone.
It ain’t God and it ain’t Mary,
it’s someone come to take me home (so take me home).

I am so afraid of falling,
and I am so afraid to leave,
but I know someone hears me calling,
and I am not afraid to see…

that someone’s lookin’ out for me.
Someone’s here when I’m alone.
It ain’t God and it ain’t Mary,
it’s someone come to warm my bones.

Well, it’s my friends and it’s my family,
and they are here to take me home.
Yes, it’s my friends and it’s my family,
and they are here to give me home.
It’s my friends and it’s my family,
they have always been my home.
It’s my friends and it’s my family,
and they will always be my home.

You’re my friends and you’re my family,
and you will always be my home.